Saying Goodbye

Kaninang umaga hinatid ko si Joshwa sa school bus nya.
Parang nalungkot ako bigla kasi mabait talaga sa akin
yung bus driver and yung bus monitor nya. Tapos
talagang love na love nila si Adrianne. When I said my
goodbye parang naiiyak ako. Ganun pala na feel
pag aalis ka na sa isang lugar nang biglaan. Tipong
we were so busy packing, getting ready,
making the arrangements tapos when you finally
sit down it really does hit you aalis na talaga.
Totoo pala talaga na you’ll really leave a piece of
your heart behind. We have great memories here..
Became closer with my sister and sister in law.
Joshwa improved so much and of course we
received the best remembrance ever si Adrianne.

Siguro my next post would be from Manila na..

Malapit Na..

Nakaempake na lahat.. Yung last batch ng mga ipapa ship na gamit
kukunin na bukas.Yung mga gamit na iiwanan naibilin na sa mga taong
karapat dapat pagbilinan.. Excited akong umuwi and yet medyo
nalungkot ako kasi nagkaron na kami ng mga kaibigan. Pero sa lahat lahat
ng mga ma miss ko apat na tao ang mamiss ko talaga nang sobra sobra.

Si Grishan sya ang kapatid na sumunod sa akin close kami dati
pero naging mas close talaga kami kasi kami talaga nagdadamayan.
Susunduin nya kami para makapag weekend kami sa kanila.
Natulog sya dito tapos sya ang gumising nang madaling araw
nung umiiyak si Adrianne para lang makatulog ako. Pag may
mali akong ginagawa sya unang nagsasabi sa akin.Kaya nga nung
may nagsabi sa akin na may sinabi daw sya tungkol sa akin
di ako naniniwala.I could go on and on.. Pero i know magkikita pa
rin naman kami. Saka may Vonage naman sa Pilipinas kaya okay lang.
Pero alam ko bukas pag hinatid nya ako talagang maiiyak ako.

Si Brox ay pamangkin ko love na love ko talaga sya kasi sya ang
one and only pamangkin ko. Mabait na bata sya, matalino and
very sweet. Hayyy I will miss him saka talagang love na love sya
ni Joshwa.

Hazel– Na meet ko sya kasi through another friend and we hit
it off right away. Ninang sya ni Adrianne.. I will miss the fact
that she’s just a phone call away.

Ate Beth— She’s not just my sister in law.. She’s my sister
na talaga. I love her so much.. She’s the Ate that I’ve always
wanted. Mas close ako sa kanya kasya kay Philbert.
I will also miss our weekend visits.

I’m looking forward to starting a new chapter of our lives in
the Philippines. Things are just going to get better and
I know it..

A Disaster

Which is which?

 

I don’t really know what’s worse. Yung taong manggagamit who will

do anything and everything to get what they want. Doesn’t really

care about whose expense.

 

Or someone na pumapayag mag pagamit (not physically ha) na alam

nyang masama na ang nangyayari pero stands by the sidelines while

the manggagamit wreaks havoc on everyone and leaves a trail of disaster on its wake.

Either because its a decision not do anything or just because that person

has no backbone.

 

Either way it’s a disaster.. I don’t know what I’ll choose if I have to pick which

side I want to be in.

Now It Can Be Told..

We are going home!!!! Philbert will be transferred to their
Makati office.I’m looking forward to it.. Initially to be
honest I wasn’t really keen on him taking it. Kasi I really
thought that we would be growing old here and the kids
will grow up here. This was really not an easy decision
to uproot the kids again. We really thought about this
asked for counsell and prayed and prayed about it.

But something happened that changed
my mind and sealed the deal for us na sort of answered
prayer na rin. Joshwa wandered off again and I almost went
crazy looking for him. Dami pa namang child molesters na nagkalat
talagang maloloka na ako kakahanap.
Luckily someone found him but I told myself that’s it.
can’t go through this again.What if next time mawala na uli
si Joshwa tapos di ko na sya makita.
Then I told myself thy will be done Lord.
If you think mapapabuti
kami sa Manila then so be it.

At least sa Manila I could afford to hire someone
to help me look after Joshwa.
Then everything fell into place my mom was
able to find a home for us in such a short notice.
2 friends are going to help me find a job
if I should decide that I’m ready to work.

I’m looking forward to seeing my scrapbook friends,
visiting the newest malls and new places.

Wish us luck as we go through a new adventure
in Manila.

Still Packing

Di pa rin tapos pag iimpake ng gamit..Si Philbert na lang
pinapagawa ko kasi mas magaling sya pag iimpake at
pag aayos ng mga gamit. Hopefully sa pupuntahan
namin medyo magtatagal na kami dun. Within this week
namin malalaman kung kailan ba talaga ang alis namin
di pa ako nagsabi sa school. Kasi baka magsabi ako
tapos di pa pala kami aalis agad mawawalan pa nang
school placement ni Joshwa.

I will let you guys know soon kung saan kami pupunta.
This week i-blog ko na rin yun. Wait ko lang yung actual
ticket para sure na sure na talaga.

Packing

We’re currently trying to pack frantically
because Philbert has a new assignment.
If the plans push through we have to leave in 2 or 3 weeks
at the most. Will discuss the details if and when we get there.

I never realized packing could be so stressful.
Grabe!! tempers are flaring up well mostly his temper.
Talagang naniniwala na talaga ako sa power of the spoken
word. I was just chatting with a friend last December
she was telling me that she hates the packing and unpacking
and moving around. I told her I want that kind of adventure.
Tapos eto na nangyari na… Hayyyyy!!!! ayoko na pala..
We have to uproot Joshwa na naman. Pero this is for the
family eh.This is the career break that Philbert needs.

Please pray for us na lang that everything
falls into place.

DENSE???

I have a friend who for many years wanted to tell me that
she wasn’t into men she was scared that I was a homophobic.
We were really close and people were always asking me
if she was straight of course she was I would tell them that she was.
I remember even in college some classmates were telling me
that she wasn’t straight but I defended her and last October
she came out and told me that what people were saying about
her was true all along.

I did tell her that she made me feel so stupid because
I was the last to know. I tell her almost everything and
anything about meand yet something as major as this she wouldn’t
tell me because she doesn’t think I would understand
She said that she always wanted to tell me.

Why didn’t I learn from the past? this has happened before
to another person in my life. She was always hanging
out with this girl. The girl was always at her house and
people were asking me if they were together and
I would tell themthat it’s really not nice to put malice
onthe actions of other people.

I simply refusedto believe that she wasn’t straight.
I never asked her because if it were true I was
hoping that she would tell me.

Until we attended a support group meeting and that
was where she casually told the other people
there that she had a girlfriend. I almost fell out
of my chair and if i was drinking something
i almost surely spit it out.

Am I homophobic? I don’t think so.I have friends and
relatives who are gay and lesbians.I accept them for who
they are but I admire them for being true to themselves.

I know i’m rambling here.. maybe next time I hear
something about a friend maybe I could just ask
them straight up if it’s true or not so that
I wouldn’t be the last to know